Rocketman

Date #1

Tomorrow I am meeting Rocketman for a drink at 8:30. I know it's kind of late, but he doesn't get off work until 7, so 8:30 it is. Rocketman works at the airport. He's 33, never been married and has no children.

Rocketman wanted to meet for coffee last week, but I just wasn't quite ready for that at the time. So, I told him I was going to be pretty busy with school starting the next few days and that perhaps we could wait until things settled down a bit. He was very nice and said we should talk on the phone when I was ready. After I sent him my number and then after some further thought, I decided I'd rather just meet him in person. So, on Thursday when he texted me asking me if he could call that evening, I said said I wasn't available, but that perhaps we could meet this next week. Monday was the day we decided upon.

I have come to realize in my 33 years of life that I tend to get emotionally connected quite easily and it always leads to heartache, so, I'd rather just meet in person and see if there is any reason to keep talking. I wouldn't say I'm nervous, necessarily, I can talk to anyone, but there are times when my social anxiety kicks in and I just want to bring out the autism in me and sit in a dark room and rock back and forth. Maybe I'll do that from 7-8 tomorrow evening. But then again, maybe not.