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My foot is a bit swollen tonight. I guess I've been doing a little too much these last couple of days and my dog stepping on the exact spot of the fracture probably didn't help any!

Okay, back to the topic of dating...

I was trying to think earlier about the last time I had a crush on a guy and to be quite honest with everyone I can't remember! What a great feeling to be so smitten with somebody that you wonder what they are doing every minute of every hour (unfortunately for me it was usually one-sided and it was perhaps stalkeresque at times)! Anyway, why is it that I have this idea in my head of what I'm looking for and when he's not a complete package I give up?

My aunt stated the other night when questioning me about life and love that perhaps God has called me to the gift of singleness. Hmm....is that really a gift? What? No life partner? Dare I say it...no sex? No children? Growing old alone? My response to dear Aunt Barbara (whom I adore, by the way)? "Dear God, no!" I've wondered lately if this is the time when I end up settling! I hope not! A friend of mine just got married in December and when they got back from their honeymoon her husband got really sick and was recently diagnosed with transverse myelitis (swelling of the spinal chord that affects every aspect of functioning). If that could happen to her, it could happen to me. I want to be quite sure that if I get married I want to be so in love that I wouldn't mind taking care of a sick husband.

I really don't have any answers, but as for right now, my current friend is sweet enough to warrant a fourth date, I suppose!